What’s a big sin in your life that God is convicting you of?!
Well, I’ve had many lately 😅 but the one I’ve been thinking about most recently is my high desire for efficiency- aka, “my time is my own”. As I transition to fully staying at home, I’m realizing that this area gets in the way of me loving and serving my family completely. I love making lists, working towards goals- almost all of them good things and a lot of them involve caring for my loved ones; just probably not as good as me dropping my preconceived ideas and living in the actual, true need of the moment.
The people in our lives, are far more than tasks- they must be engaged, felt heard, and be made a top priority. Some people are really good at this, but myself being an introvert, needing quiet time, and needing to feel in control, I find myself struggling in this particular area. It doesn’t mean that I have to become an extrovert and not make any personal goals (God made me the unique personality that I am, with my own interests for developing), it just means I need to be more willing to give of myself in order to fully love others. There are phases and certain situations which will require more of this, along with boundaries that I can wisely establish through the seeking of God in prayer.
And as always, a Lewis quote for further pondering 😁:
“The great thing, if one can, is to stop regarding all unpleasant things as interruptions of one’s “own” or “real” life. The truth is of course that what one calls interruptions are precisely one’s real life—the life God is sending one day by day.”